youve got to b kidding me. well if my ORIF two yrs ago, broken foot , RSDS in foot and then hardware removal in 2008 followed by fractured tibia to the same bad leg wasnt enough..all the posts Ive made about doing good n gettin my life back..well again I was walking last night..took five steps away from my car on flat pavement...wasnt wet, no holes, , my right ankle( the good guy ) turned over in mid step, all the weight pushed down on my turned over ankle on a paved parking lot...wala! a broken fibula tip..
now my bad guy is not ready for the work load that is fixn to be required of it..I was told in rehab tuesday that only my middle quad muscle is doing all the work, my inner thigh and outer muscles to the hip have become lazy and so that keeps the patella pulled a bit sideways and causes some of the pain Ive been feeling..so your standard muscle imbalance...well.. now my body has to figure out how to engage those muscles asap for this little emergency to compensate for the good guys new lazy state!
I have only been to th Er last night. my OS is " tripple booked" and cant c me so his phys. assistant will c me tomorrow morning for any more x rays and casting. My fear is that the" good guy gone bad routine" is going to snow ball into a series of medical crimes for my bad leg...with the rsd and thin bones and lazy muscles and Chrondomalacia,,, blah blah blah.. my head is reeling with endless possibilities :
will my right leg get rsds too now? will I get stress fractures to my bad leg from the thin bones from bearing all the weight when its used to being babied and letting the other guy carry the heavier load . I cant get any fractured to the bad leg...I cant have both legs broken at the same time my son works///good grief this is soooo stupid!
I am so frustrated n scared...I told my family last night " soon I will be receiving treatment from a physcologist for my extreme fear Ive developed from all of this: " fear-of falling, fear of breaking something else" Ill become the longest record for never leaving home..they will have to label me " crippled -by -phobic- paranoia-" and I will require heavy sedation just to place my feet on the ground each day LOL

I am trying to maintain humor as a coping method...but I dont mind tellin you i am reachin deep here.
Signed, " GiGi broken in 67 pieces!"
