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Offline tanyap

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Trouble Believing
« on: January 30, 2008, 04:21:01 PM »
Hi All,
I know that if my VMO and rest of quads get stronger I shouldnt dislocate so easily.

I accept that intellectually. But I just dont believe it emotionally!!!!!

Is that normal? My OS assures me the rehab program WILL work. I just dont know!!! Has anyone else felt like this?

Tanya
1986 - recurrent dislocations of right patella began
1988 - Modified Hauser Procedure
1991 - dislocations started again
2005 to 2007 - 150 dislocations in 2 years - OUCH!!!
June 2007 - new OS, new physio
Oct 2007 - VMO woke up
Mar 2008 - big quads, still dislocating
Apr 2008 - next OS app

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Re: Trouble Believing
« Reply #1 on: January 30, 2008, 04:25:46 PM »
I think we all have those times when even though we know something will work we have trouble accepting it.  I remember my first steps after begin told to put weight on my leg, I was sure my leg would shatter, or my knee would buckle or I would just fall over.  I "knew" this wouldn't happen, but my mind just had a hard time accepting it.  The human body is amazingly strong and at the same time delicate, some times you just have to have faith and "go for it". 
8/4/07 fell
8/5 diagnosed TPF
8/6 surgery plate and 6 screws
8/12 out of hospital NWM
8/21 staples removed
9/18 OS appt - WBAT with crutches
10/10 - WBAT with cane
10/27 - back to work w/cane
12/26 - no cane, slight limp when tired
1/25/08 - released from PT, no limp
2/3/09 - Released by OS

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Re: Trouble Believing
« Reply #2 on: January 30, 2008, 05:41:51 PM »
Tanya,

I feel this way all the time.  My OS has assured me that after I heal from  both of my surgeries that I should be able to do anything I want.  I have a hard time picturing myself doing anything because I am so used to my kneecaps dislocating.  So I think it will take a while to really believe that my kneecaps will be okay.

Brianne

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Re: Trouble Believing
« Reply #3 on: January 31, 2008, 07:46:25 AM »
Hi Tanya,

I'm totally with you on this one.

I have just lost total faith in trying all conservative treatment. Both my sports physician and knee physio say something will work but it's hard because I've tried so many things and nothing has worked.

It is now 2 weeks and 6 days till I see my knee surgeon !!! Can't wait till I know what I'll be dealing with.

You're doing well and have come a long way.  ;)
11/1996 - RK LR
07/1997 - LK LR
11/1998 - LK MPFL Reco
12/2005 - RK LR Repair
07/2006 - LK MPFL Repair
11/2006 - LK LR Repair
22/05/08 - LK Trochleoplasty
11/02/10 - RK Trochleoplasty
07/03/11 - RK Chrondroplasty

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Re: Trouble Believing
« Reply #4 on: January 31, 2008, 10:15:34 AM »
Thanks guys - i get these paranoid thoughts that some mysterious underlying problem is not being addressed and Im wasting my time :)
Im glad Im not the only one who sometimes feels that way!!

On a brighter note - Im in my longest period in 3 years without a dislocation!! 17 weeks and 2 days now. Ive had a couple of near misses and I still feel 'dislocatey' walking but I seem to have stopped dislocating it in bed or just randomly while standing about and turning suddenly etc....
1986 - recurrent dislocations of right patella began
1988 - Modified Hauser Procedure
1991 - dislocations started again
2005 to 2007 - 150 dislocations in 2 years - OUCH!!!
June 2007 - new OS, new physio
Oct 2007 - VMO woke up
Mar 2008 - big quads, still dislocating
Apr 2008 - next OS app

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Re: Trouble Believing
« Reply #5 on: January 31, 2008, 10:38:07 AM »
Hi Tanya,

Well done !!! That is such good progres. I guess I could say the same.

It can only get better from here.

Keep up the good work !!!!
11/1996 - RK LR
07/1997 - LK LR
11/1998 - LK MPFL Reco
12/2005 - RK LR Repair
07/2006 - LK MPFL Repair
11/2006 - LK LR Repair
22/05/08 - LK Trochleoplasty
11/02/10 - RK Trochleoplasty
07/03/11 - RK Chrondroplasty

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Re: Trouble Believing
« Reply #6 on: January 31, 2008, 11:05:20 AM »
All us dislocaters should be assigned a new memory chip to stop us from feeling like itll never end!
1986 - recurrent dislocations of right patella began
1988 - Modified Hauser Procedure
1991 - dislocations started again
2005 to 2007 - 150 dislocations in 2 years - OUCH!!!
June 2007 - new OS, new physio
Oct 2007 - VMO woke up
Mar 2008 - big quads, still dislocating
Apr 2008 - next OS app

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Re: Trouble Believing
« Reply #7 on: January 31, 2008, 11:20:43 AM »
I have a lot of cofiendence taht this surgery worked...

But theres always that thought in the back of your mind... But I'm trying to stay positive at this the best I have ever done after any realignment surgery!

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Re: Trouble Believing
« Reply #8 on: January 31, 2008, 03:49:13 PM »
I hear you....self doubt is a monster. I have surgery next week and Im already afriad it didnt work......ha...and I havent had it yet.  Fear of the unknown...and prior disappointment.....it scars you after a while.    I am going to try to put on a strong face and have faith this next time.   

You are not alone in the doubt. I think everyone has that.  It is great that you have gone that long without a dislocation!  That is wonderful.

Hang in there. Vent here all you need to.  We all need to hear that you feel that way too....b/c it makes us not feel crazy as well!

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LR Reconstruction scheduled 2/08

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Re: Trouble Believing
« Reply #9 on: January 31, 2008, 04:21:28 PM »
We all need to hear that you feel that way too....b/c it makes us not feel crazy as well!

hehehehehe - if I surround myself with crazies then no one will notice that IM the crazy one!!!
1986 - recurrent dislocations of right patella began
1988 - Modified Hauser Procedure
1991 - dislocations started again
2005 to 2007 - 150 dislocations in 2 years - OUCH!!!
June 2007 - new OS, new physio
Oct 2007 - VMO woke up
Mar 2008 - big quads, still dislocating
Apr 2008 - next OS app

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Re: Trouble Believing
« Reply #10 on: January 31, 2008, 04:29:51 PM »
ha ha...I have always wondered if somewhere in some of my medical charts they say Im crazy..........I try to hide it when I go in. :-)   and...I always ask my PT if she thinks Im crazy.  (Im not sure she would tell me the truth though.) ha ha
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