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Offline maria1985

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what's the point??
« on: April 17, 2007, 07:28:58 PM »
hi everyone
well i had my doctors app and surprise surprise there was nothing he could do for me.
i went to see him about the fact that i wasn't happy with the hospital i'm at and that i am in so much pain that i feel like vomiting the whole day and he turns round and says there's nothing he can do and that i need to speak to the pain clinic specialist next week when i go.
he went through the whole list of pain meds that i have taken but didn't give me anything because i told him that none of those helped.he has written me a letter to take to the hospital next week which i have to pick up monday in the hope that the hospital can suggest something and told me that if i have no luck with them i can go back and see him and see what else he can do for me.
i can understand the fact that i need to speak to the pain clinic specialist but i feel like i'm getting no where and i honestly thought my gp would be helpful as normally he is.

the pain has been so bad the past few days that i constantly feel sick i'm really grumpy, annoyed, so much so that as soon as someone talks to me i get pissed of (which is a problem as i'm a sales assistant), i don't want to see anyone or even speak to anyone i just want to be left alone yet no one understands that and i have friends and family asking if i'm alright all the time, i no they're just worried about me but it doesn't help the situation. i'm feeling so down and depressed that i just feel like crying all the time, i've really had enough and don't no what else to do.

sorry this post is long and for the fact that i'm feeling sorry for myself because i know that there's people on this board alot worse of than me but at the moment i can't help feeling like this.

thanks for letting me vent of and reading my post

maria.xx

chronic knee pain since 10 years old.
lateral release in 2000
goldwaithes in 2002
2 weeks intensive physio in 2005
nowhere near to finding the course of the problem.

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Re: what's the point??
« Reply #1 on: April 17, 2007, 07:33:08 PM »
I am sorry to hear things did not go well and your pain issues aren't' any better.  I hope things turn around for you soon.  Please let me know if you need to vent, cry, mangle some uncaring idiots knee, or anything else that could make you feel better.

Things will get better wish I could tell you when.  I am having a tough day too but yours is much worse.  I will be thinking of you.

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Re: what's the point??
« Reply #2 on: April 17, 2007, 07:42:19 PM »
Hang in there Maria!  It's frustrating that your doctor wasn't able to help with the pain, but hopefully the pain clinic specialist can help next week.  In the meantime, know that we're thinking of you and hoping you feel better soon.  I totally know what you mean about just not wanting to talk to anybody - we can all get so grumpy when we are hurting and for me it's better to just not talk to anyone and avoid saying something that I'll regret later.  Problem is that it's hard to resist when my friends ask me, in a rather snide way, why I'm not talking to them.  Well, sometimes it's just not about them and it has to be about you.  Do what you need to to get through this, vent all you need to, have a good cry, then try to find one good thing about the day to cheer you up a little.

Take care,
Sarah
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Re: what's the point??
« Reply #3 on: April 17, 2007, 07:43:03 PM »
thanks for your quick reply and your support.
i am also here if you need to vent, cry or just want to talk. it would be brilliant if we could swap a few hours with these stupid doctors and let them suffer like we do and see how they cope because they think that in a 10 minute app they know everything and know what we are going through.
i want to scream and shout at everyone and anyone that gets in my way or even those that will listen to me.
you said that you having a tough day i hope you ok (stupid thing to say i spose) remember i am here if you need to talk.

maria.xx
chronic knee pain since 10 years old.
lateral release in 2000
goldwaithes in 2002
2 weeks intensive physio in 2005
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Re: what's the point??
« Reply #4 on: April 17, 2007, 07:50:22 PM »
thanks sarah
you're right about the friends things they seem to think it's about them when i don't want to be my normal bubbly self or that i'm just being cold towards them, they don't really understand what it's like sometimes they moan about stuff and i just think to myself "i wish we could swap just for a day" i don't mean it but i can't help thinking it sometimes so they know what its like to be in my shoes and that i'm not being a grumpy cow over nothing and that there is a reason behind it.

this is a night of ranting and raving for me so sorry for going on.

i hope you are keeping well sarah.

maria.xx
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lateral release in 2000
goldwaithes in 2002
2 weeks intensive physio in 2005
nowhere near to finding the course of the problem.

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Re: what's the point??
« Reply #5 on: April 17, 2007, 09:28:18 PM »
Maria, if you went through the list of meds with him and nothing helps, what can he more do for you ?
A GP can a lot of stuff but for this problem you have you need someone more specialized.
I know you get angry that he can't help and that is totally understandable and frustrating for you.
Believe me I understand you. I have been there several times myself and when you are in so much pain and can't be offered anything you just want to scream..hey can you see me I am suffering !!!
But better that he says I can't help you and write a letter to try help you then pretend to be able help and that won't lead to anything at all.
I hope your appointment goes well.
Thinking of you !!
HUGS NETTAN  8)
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Re: what's the point??
« Reply #6 on: April 18, 2007, 12:32:07 PM »
thanks nettan i really appreciate all the support from everyone. i can understand your point about the GP.
well i have a day of work today so i haven't done much just been trying to relax and chill out really as i am back at work tomorrow, hopefully the pain will calm down abit i still feel sick though, fingers crossed that the pain clinic specialist will beable to suggest something.

maria.xx
chronic knee pain since 10 years old.
lateral release in 2000
goldwaithes in 2002
2 weeks intensive physio in 2005
nowhere near to finding the course of the problem.

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Re: what's the point??
« Reply #7 on: April 19, 2007, 05:42:05 PM »
Hi Maria,
Just wanted to check in and see how you were doing.  You have been on my mind.
Allison

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Re: what's the point??
« Reply #8 on: April 19, 2007, 07:10:10 PM »
hi allison thanks for your concern but to be honest with you i'm not really doing any better than i was at the beginning of the week. i'm still really down and cheesed of with everything, i feel sick all the time, i've gone off my food, i just been feeling really low and i don't want to talk to anybody all i want to do is cry!!
i seem to be having a bad week i thought it would only last a day or 2 then i would be fine but this time round i don't seem to be fine, i just want to give up with it all.i don't want to start crying as i'm worried i won't beable to stop so i keep it to myself. i don't know I'M FED UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HOW HAVE YOU BEEN FEELING WITH YOUR KNEE or in general really?? keep me posted on your progress ok.

maria.xx

chronic knee pain since 10 years old.
lateral release in 2000
goldwaithes in 2002
2 weeks intensive physio in 2005
nowhere near to finding the course of the problem.

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Re: what's the point??
« Reply #9 on: April 19, 2007, 07:17:56 PM »
Maria,

So sorry you're still feeling lousy.  I'm sending a big virtual bear hug your way!!!  (Hmm, maybe I shouldn't squeeze too tight - don't want to hurt you more!)   ; :-[  Hopefully you're able to at least get some food in you to give your body some strength to keep on fighting each day.  I wish I could do more to help you out, but know that I'm thinking of you and hoping you find a couple good moments each day.  Maybe some days those last a little longer than the day before, and hopefully next week you can see your pain specialist and get some of the pain straightened out. 

Take care,
Sarah
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Re: what's the point??
« Reply #10 on: April 19, 2007, 07:28:26 PM »
thank you sarah, how have you been feeling?

i'm really hoping that i will get somewhere with the pain clinic next week even if they just offer me something for the pain as this is what i'm struggling with. i am managing to keep abit of food down but the prob is that i don't even want to eat as the sickness feels worse as i then have stuff to bring up, which is also becoming a pain as today whilst at work i was becoming light head and dizzy through out the day. i feel as though i'm in a no win situation.
but hey fingers and toes crossed for next week i suppose. :(

maria.xx
chronic knee pain since 10 years old.
lateral release in 2000
goldwaithes in 2002
2 weeks intensive physio in 2005
nowhere near to finding the course of the problem.

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Re: what's the point??
« Reply #11 on: April 19, 2007, 08:24:10 PM »
Chronic pain is a bugger but there's not much you can do but live with it and try to control it. I've lived with it for 34 years. Been in pain management for only 3 of those. Don't spend a lot of time dwelling on it, it just makes it worse. People always seem to shudder and feel sorry for me when I tell them all the surgery I've been through. But I just count my blessings and move on. I figure if I wake up and I'm not in pain then I must be dead.

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« Reply #12 on: April 22, 2007, 04:56:31 AM »
Maria...how are you feeling?  Been thinking about you - hope the weekend is treating you well.  When do you get to see the pain specialist?

Sarah
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Re: what's the point??
« Reply #13 on: April 22, 2007, 05:12:16 AM »
me too Maria, just checking in on you.  Hope you have had a better day.
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Re: what's the point??
« Reply #14 on: April 22, 2007, 12:42:24 PM »
hi guys
how are you all doing? i'm ok thanks i'm feeling abit better than i have been all week. i got the day off work (i use to work sundays now i don't) my knee is still absolutly killing me but my mood is better. i have even decided to chop off all my hair and go short as i tend to do mad things when i want cheering up (my hair means alot to me so its big decision for me), i'm having it done on saturday for my brothers engagement i'm even having highlights done as i want a complete change.

i have my app with the pain clinic on tuesday and i have to say that i have it on my mind all the time i'm worried about what will be said and done, although i'm trying to hide it from everyone as i don't want to burst into tears or let on that i'm stressing about it.

thanks for all your help and advice in this really bad week i have had it has meant alot to me.
hope you are all well

maria.xx 
chronic knee pain since 10 years old.
lateral release in 2000
goldwaithes in 2002
2 weeks intensive physio in 2005
nowhere near to finding the course of the problem.















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