I'm sat here feeling absolutely and utterly devastated ...
At my last Hospital Appointment in March I was told that I needed an Urgent Arthroscopy ... apparently Urgent means that it might possibly happen some time in June.
And whilst waiting I'm not allowed to do any Physio, am practically housebound etc.
When I found out that the Arthroscopy wasn't likely to happen for months, I complained to the Management, who approached the Consultant to ask if things could be brought forward. He refused as there are other people in similar situations who's Operations are just as urgent as mine etc. etc. This was upsetting, but understandable (I guess!

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But ....I've got lots of questions about the reasons for the Arthroscopy etc. so I asked for an appointment with my Consultant to discuss these things. Given the fact that the Op won't happen for ages, I didn't think it wouldn't be a problem ...
But apparently it is a problem and
he's REFUSING to see me!He's said that he'll write to me ... but absolutely and utterly refuses to see me! He says his Outpatients appt. list is full and there is no need for an appt as the Junior Registrar has seen me and explained things.
I feel everso slightly rejected by this
I haven't been given any indication that there are any plans for fixing my missing Tendon, and don't want further Surgery unless it's absolutely necessary. All I wanted was 10 mins to ask Why he wants to do the Arthoscopy, is there any risk of further damage to my Scar Tissue, Can I at least do some Physio whilst waiting, Does he have any plans for reconstructing my patella tendon etc. etc.
I know that I'm a PITA, but I feel scared about the Op. and need some reassurance from the person who would actually be doing it (and given my previous experiences I think that's a reasonable request)
In the past few weeks, I've hit rock bottom!
I've had to apply for Disability Living Allowance etc. and I wake up every morning feeling as if life just doesn't feel worth living
and now the man who's supposed to operate on my Knee refuses to meet me - and there is absolutely nothing I can do about it!
I'm left with a strong feeling of ...... Do I want this man to operate on me?
Which is probably a childish reaction

but if he hasn't got the empathy to understand that I need some reassurance... if he doesn't think it appropriate to find some time to spend a few minutes with me, then I'm not sure that he's the Consultant for me!
So ... what do I do next ...... Am I over-reacting?
What do you guys/gals think about this?
S