Situation IS getting better:)

[emergRN]

Nope the brain had a shut down moment!  I had no pain!  It was just that they were there, and I picked up the wrong bottles!  i was really half asleep!  Didn't need it, and it screwed up part of my day.  That won't be happening again.  They are put somewhere out of the way!  I am actually glad to not have to make a choice of having to take it or not!  I really don't need anything!  I am actually starting to forget about the knee, and today I bagged up three more bags of clothes to give a way and a bag of shoes.  I also cleaned out two closets.  I haven't done anything like that in a very long time!

W

[Rknees4]

Hey W,
So glad to hear you had a very productive day.  That is a good thing.
Wish I could forget about mine.
Rk4

[CariG]

W, I'm jealous!!! Wish I had two closets to fill up with clothes in the first place!  Well done....glad to hear you're able to forget about the knee and life is picking up.
RK4 ~ big hugs...and hope the twins are improving still!!

[Rknees4]

Well Gang,
Starting another day with no night.
Rk4 and the torture twins.
A.. I am ready for the amputation party any time now. I will bring extra beer incase we find someone else who would like to join us.

Morning Lottie, maybe you could remove all the bees out from under my kneecaps.

[Lottiefox]

Morning Rk......Lucas is quite good with insects but I try and steer him away from the bees.......    is it any cooler there? I'll swap you some of our dreadful rain!! 

Lottie x

[Rknees4]

Well Lottie it will be hot and hazy here, and tomorrow is going to be ridiculously hot and sticky.  Then maybe by Wedsday some rain which is badly needed as everything is dry, dry, dry.
Sorry about the rain but that is good Old English weather isn't it.?
Hope Reggie isn't suffering to badly with the weather.
Have a good day Lottie.

[tez27]

Good morning or should I say afternoon folks, a week today for chop day and the way this knee is feeling it cant come quickly enough, I am just scared they are going to say they cant do it untill the bloods settle down, though I have been very careful and it seems to go between 5 and the highest fasted one i have had was 6.2 but I'm not sure if that would be ok or not...oh well just have to wait and see what happens, I have a feeling this is going to be a long week.

W you my dear sound amazing, so upbeat and busy I am so chuffed for you that after everything that you have been through things do indeed look as if they're on the up, so I'm sending you a well done (((hug))) with the hope that some of yout good luck will rub off on me

Lottie it looks like I will have time to watch the Olympics  too if the op goes ahead, cos from the look of the weather forecast the rain is going to be around for some time to come, they're talking about Sept before we get some sunshine.I hope the sickly kitty is feeling better today, its horrid when your pet is sick but cant tell you whats wrong or where it hurts.

Brams tell those demons to stop sticking your poor feet with those tridents its very rude and not very nice of them Good luck with the dentist today I also hate the thought of going to the dentist and needing any work done.. too many visits to butchers while growing up to ever feel relaxed about a dental appointment

RK so sorry your still in so much pain I know you have probably already told us but I am a  bit forgetful and cant remember when is your follow up appointment with your surgeon? is the pain your in now worse than it was before the op?...... feel better     

Cari good for you managing the shower on your own, just be careful not to over do it this early after the op, I hope when you remove the bandages you dont feel too open to the elements, its fantastic that you have less pain than before the op that must give you a good feeling that things are improving..long may it continue.

Robin how goes it with you lovely lady?? how are the shoulders feeling these day, you haven't mentioned them recently I hope that's a good sign that they are improving, you will be like a new woman if that's the case with your new shiny knee and 2 working shoulders,you and Jake will be off cycling around the country.

A sorry your having a painful time, whats the next step for you have you thought about what to do if things continue as they are? at least the kitty is happy to have you about loads just now but your far too young to be feeling like that too often, I hope your weather improves soon too, this freak weather we are having has really depressed me and everyone else so we need some sunshine and heat .

Rats I hope the ankle feels better soon, take care and try not to do too much  that will  irritate it

If I have missed anyone out sorry take care everyone xx       

[emergRN]

Tez...a normal fasting blood glucose is between 3.7-6.0.  6.2 is not bad!  I don't think that you would be in any trouble surgery wise with those levels.  I think that you would have to be a heck of a lot higher than that before they would cancel you.  If your surgeon was that concerned, he would have probably ordered a pre op consult with internal medicine.  The risk with high blood sugars is slow healing, and an increased risk of infection.  Keep doing whatever it is that you are doing!  I'm proud of ya!!

Thanks for the Tez hug

W

[Brambledog]

Hi gang!

Well just to put you all out of your misery the dentist was fab and fine. Phew. Checked everything out, all looks very healthy, said my gums were in excellent condition and not many fillings for an old bird so he thinks I'll be ok (Brams touches wood...). Did X-ray of offending area, all looks good, so pain definitely coming from the grinding thing. He doesn't think it's a good idea to do a night-guard jobbie as it could increase the pressure on the offending (and fighting, lol) teeth. So just more relaxation, warm baths at night, meditation and stress-free existence....oh, and no pain of course
Strangely, my husband had the same thing earlier this year and had it checked out, with the same prognosis, and he's had a bit of that last night and today. So, get this, he's agreed to do one of my meditation CDs with me tonight before bed!!!!! I can safely say that that will be a new one for the old marriage bed....lol.

We had a good chat about the CRPS thing - he's come across similar things before involving over-active pain responses etc, and is happy to use different injections without the ephrinidine (?sp) which can exacerbate things, and to do the jabs both before and afterwards to give the best chance of no problems. I'll still be bricking it though! Hate hate hate the chair.... Tez, thanks for having the same issues! (if you know what I mean, lol)

Will do the rounds properly later, hugs everyone!

A Relieved Brams 

[seerobinbike]

Hey Gang,

Oh, Super...I think I might just be looking forward to the surgery if it really were being done with said Doctor Richard Gere. Hang in there and hope things are feeling better today.

W...You busy little bee!  You've already done more today than I've thought of doing.  Have you mistakingly taken an extra dose of pain meds?   Seriously, I'm so happy to read that your knee is in so much less pain.  Let this be the beginning of a new and better knee!

Rk...I know it's hard for you to just. stay. still. for. a moment, but honestly you are not doing your knees any favors by overdoing it.  There will be plenty of time for that!  I'm sorry for the lecture; please don't take it the wrong way.  I just want to see you up and about and most importantly, PAIN FREE!  (I'm off my soapbox.)  No kidding, you guys are getting this humid weather as well?  Hope you've got a couple of AC's running.

Tez...Oh, lovely Tez.   I'm certainly no expert on fasting glucose numbers but if normal high is 6, I'd be very surprised if a 6.2 stopped the surgery.  I didn't realize it was so close!  Oh, my!  You are doing awesome.  It's funny how quickly we can change our not so good habits when we are forced to, huh? 

Lottie...Hope that you had a nice weekend.  Crap on the rain, huh?!  I'm so excited about the upcoming Olympic games!  I wish I were so wealthy to be able to shoot over to London to watch the opening ceremonies and then hotfoot it to the Champs-Elysées for a stage of the Tour.  Ah, well.  It ain't so bad over here but it is fun to think about.

Brams...Phew.  Good news on the dental front!  Your dentist sounds progressive in knowing how to deal with things best if needed but I'm happy they are not.  How's your boyfriend doing?  Hope that you are spending plently of time with him for I know it brings you peace. 

A...Hope that you had a nice weekend as well!  Sorry that the accupuncture didn't help. That was one of many things I gave a whirl at.  What now?! 

Cari...Hope that today brings better pain relief to you.  Remember, you are just out of surgery so be patient.

Hi to Snowy, Nick and to anyone else I may have forgotten.  I've got a smidge of a headache and I really, really need it to go away so I can concentrate on the personal training class again.  I'm doing pretty good.  Had an awesome workout this morning on the spin bike because I didn't have a lot of time and my knee felt good. Totally whacked the thing about an hour ago and it feels a bit stiff but I don't think it's swollen.  I did freak me out for a second though.   My shoulders are in the 'thaw' stage which means that my ROM is getting better but it's still hard for me to reach for things or throw a frisbee or softball.  Ah well.  Life will go on.

Be well all and hugs for the taking.

Robin  xx

[Rknees4]

Hey Robin NO AC !!!!!!! Just lots of fans. No prob about the soap box we all climb on one time or another.
Tez see OS on Wednesday. As for pain some moments I think it is better then out of no where I get a jab that just about puts me on the floor. More healing required I think. I also have a crator where my screw used to reside. Really weird looking.
Hey to the rest of the Gang.
Rk4

[Brambledog]

Hi guys,

Sorry to do this, but I just need a couple of cyber hugs from those who understand....

Last night was awful, my feet were SO painful in bed, I was just sat there crying when my husband came in from the bathroom. He completely ignored it and was talking about anything else, the kids, the car, his rowing. He got into bed next to me, carried on pointedly ignoring my obvious pain, lay down, sighed occasionally, made a few more remarks. After a few minutes I said he would win the gold for ignoring things. He said what did I mean, he couldn't just keep asking could he? Couldn't keep saying 'how's the leg?'. I said I didn't expect him to keep asking, just not to ignore me when I'm hurting. He said I'm not ignoring you, I'm talking to you aren't I? I gave up, too busy hurting to try to get him to understand anything.

I thought it was a basic thing, if you see someone you care about, a husband, daughter, friend, colleague, in obvious pain, isn't it a human thing to care? To ask if you can do anything, to sympathise and comfort? I couldn't pass a stranger in the street who was in obvious distress without stopping and asking if they were all right.

So then I'm not just in physical pain thinking why me, why I have I got this awful thing, is it always going to be like this, will it get worse than this, what will I do if it does....all the crap your brain goes through with deep pain. I know you all know. Now I'm also wondering how the f**k my husband, of all people, who I thought I had a pretty close bond with, can just lie there ignoring his wife crying in pain. So other stuff pops into my head (thanks drugs and crips) - he can't love me, not properly, not if he can do this. Have I done something, has he got someone else, he must wish he had married someone different now, the good stuff obviously isn't worth the bad now, he's fed up with me having this and it's been less than a year. We've been married for 16 years and after less than a year of crips he's had enough.

I could go on with the misery stuff, but I'm sure you can imagine. Thank god we've got the girls or I don't know what I'd have said/done.

This morning, nothing had happened. He was pretending everything was fine. It was as though I had gone mad and imagined this dreadful night of torture, and nobody else in the world knew. I felt completely alone. I wantted to hug my children just to have some warmth and human contact. But no, you don't want to burden your kids with that kind of thing, so you smile at them, chat over breakfast, do their collar, ask if they've remembered their homework, smile, wave, wish them a good day. Close the door and crumple.

He rang me from work after I sent him a text, he was so cold, saying he had asked how 'it' was (he didn't), he couldnt keep asking, didn't know what to say really. I said I had just wanted some warmth and compassion right then and there, a warm hand holding mine in the darkness and telling me things were going to be alright.

He hasn't got a clue. Not a clue. When he was in dreadful pain with his appendix I did all the things you do in those times. Just the other night he had bad jaw pain (he gets it too every now and then), and I went off in search of tablets and water, held his hand, talked to him gently, etc until he went to sleep. So why can't he do it for me? I hung up on him after a minute more of awkward silences and insincerity. So now I'm here wondering what on earth I can do, what's going to happen, what I've done wrong.

So there you are. A bit of soul-baring for the early morning (here at least). Sorry.

So just give me a cyber hug guys, goodness knows I need them today.

Brams 

[tez27]

Brams loads and loads of (((((((((((hugs)))))))) sent to you this morning, I'm sure you husband loves you but maybe he feels it hard to know what to say or do when your in bad pain and because of that he chooses to ignore whats going on, I dont know him and I really dont want to make excuses for any man ,) but I know with D sometimes he gets annoyed with me when i'm tossing and turning and cant get comfy in bed because of the knee, that why I just get up now and come online rather than lying there feeling more and more sorry for myself, the thing is I know if things were really bad he would be there for me and I think thats what you need to sort out with your husband, even though from what you have told us about him I'm pretty sure that would be the case I think because of the way your feeling you just need some reassurance that that is the case if you know what I mean, how you get that I don't know especially when he cant see there is a problem.
Good luck with trying to get him to understand and know you can always come on here and we will be there to support and understand what your going through
Take care Tez
heres another (((hug))) just in case the first one has worn off  

[Brambledog]

Thanks Tez, you are my soul-saving little ray of sunshine this morning...x
I know you are right about my husband, but at the moment I can't square the husband I thought I had with the one from the last 12 hours. Tiredness doesn't help either, I know my brain is on zombie mode

Brams

[Lottiefox]

Hey

I think Tez has just written what I was about to say too! Hugs from me to {{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

I don't think J is any different to the husband you had yesterday - I think men just don't know what to say or do sometimes. Look at R admitting he has spent so much time and effort and money on his car project because when he started it, it was a way of lifting himself from the foot situation. I know he hasn't done it deliberately, but it does take its toll on them too and I don't think many blokes are good at being able to judge what you actually need e.g. last night you needed a hug and someone to say it would be OK....he chose the distraction technique and failed miserably but now probably feels annoyed because he feels he can't do anything right! Not justifying his behaviour, just putting it into the context of what R said to me not so long ago. Long term pain is a really tough thing for everyone to deal with - I often used to say to R just imagine actually having it, but to be honest being married to someone with it is perhaps just as frustrating in a different way. Are you able to sit down and say what you've said to us - about the fear aspect, the worry, the not sure what to do for the best concerns? Is J the sort of person that might just say right...we are going to do....XYZ...sometimes R does that and although I am not great at being told what to do sometimes you need it in order to feel that you're in it together? If that makes sense?!

I think you might need to try and get him to really open up about how he's feeling. Of course he loves you to bits, I have met J and he is clearly a good man who probably hates seeing you dealing with all of this. The danger with this bloody condition is that it just grinds you down and you get angry and you can't see the wood for the trees. I nearly walked out on R on holiday, because I just felt he didn't understand or even want to try. He just kept saying "it will settle, don't worry". Agh. But what could he have said that might have been better at that time? Not sure.

The other thing is that I wonder if you can TRY and get a sooner appt for the PM person - 5 weeks seems a long time when every night is like this. I just have this sense that you need to try and get this flare up under control......and you cannot be expected to do that on your own......

Big hugs, you know I appreciate that hideous toe feeling.

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