It's been so long since last here, I'm gonna do some updating on me first. In case not interested on the me-babble, just jump to the end that has the subject line in capital letters.
Can't believe it's been over 2 years since my last post. It's many things. Mostly just because it's been a looong time, since knees have been my only problem and therefore the forum about knees is not the place to put all that other stuff in. But not that much has changed during that time. Hand and shoulder pains still prevent me from doing much writing.
For those who don't know/remember me, I'm 30 yrs old and from Finland Scandinavia, and I've been living with pain since I was 15 (which is when my knee problems started, other stuff just followed during the years). Living with various kinds of chronic pains every day. From top to down: migraine, facial pain, shoulder pain, elbow pain, wrist pain, hand pain, chest+rib pain, back pain, hip pain, knee pain, ankle pain, foot pain. Diagnosed with Plica syndrome, Chronic Pain Syndrome, Fibromaylgia, Acid Reflux disease, Depression, Tietze's Syndrome and some other smaller stuff.
I live in the top floor of a 3-storey apartment building with no elevators :/ Not much taking strolls outside. Outside I walk with a cane, which is an improvement, since 2 years ago I used a crutch. Transportation in general is problematic. I can't drive distances longer than 5-10 minutes and the bus stop is so far away (and there's major uphill from the bus stop) I've been unable to use public transportation for 5 years now.
Financially my situation is kinda disastruous. I'm still unemployed (since 2007) and and now the social insurance institution of finland discontinued my financial aid (somewhat no reason to explain that further, since these things are so different and work so differently in every country). Without that I've now been with no income since September. Currently working on getting a new statement from my GP, which I need to file a complaint to the social insurance institution of finland to fight my case (=they discontinued my aid). Those complaints almost never work, so currently I have no idea what to do with the financial situation of mine.
Severe depression and mental health issues (almost all because of the mental pain the physical pain causes me) have taken their toll on me. I've been on a light antidepressant (Cymbalta) for almost 1,5 years now and it has not done much. I'm on a half-dose of it, because the full dose gave mee too much side effects. I tried one other antidepressant too, but it didn't work for me at all. For about 6 months (the first half of this year) I had some therapy with a nurse therapist at our health center to discuss my issues with pain and depression. I only got a certain amount of therapy in my referral, so it ended after those 6 months. The nurse therapist had a lot of patietns, so I only saw her like once or twice a month. Still I think I got as far as possible with that nurse, so continuing seeing her would have not necessarily gotten me further. The downhills I've had with my depression since, tell me that some more therapy could be needed, though. We've been without a GP (in Finland ur personal doctor at health center is pointed out by the city part u live in) for over a year and just recently they got a new one. She seems really good and I hope she stays for a while. She tries to get me a referral for some more threapy, will see how that goes.
My family and friends can only be so much help. Parents are seniors with health problems of their own, my brother thinks I've made it all up (no hands to go into THAT more now, if interested, look up my earlier posts) and that pain in general does not exist. I have some close friends, but they most have families and children of their own, which therefore translates into not that much time for seeing their single friends. So, my social circles are pretty non-existent at the moment.
I have two lovely nieces (2 and 5) and I'm in constant struggle how to someday help them understand that auntie has pains that never go away. It doesn't help much that their father, my big brother, has such a horrible point of view on pain in general (it's nothing, not real, not a big thing, auntie has made it all up in her head..). It's inetivable the girls' parents' take on pain will affect on how they think of it. Niece#1 (5yrs) gets mad when I can't do something my pains prevent me from doing and of course I can't get through her at that age yet. Especially when her dad is not helping the situation one bit.. Niece#2 (2yrs) is too little to get any of this, so I can just wait and hope.
I still live with my parents, simply because I have no money to live on my own. I'm trying to get a place of my own (I'm on a waiting list of sorts in our housing company) and if I get it, I still have to worry about how I'm gonna pay for it all..insurances, rent etc. The social insurance institution of Finland offers some financial aids, when u live alone, but I don't know if I'm qualified. No idea how to make certain everyday things happen either, like getting groceries (here we don't have home delivery in foods anywhere online yet), cleaning up, cooking etc. Really one big mess and causes loads of stress and depression.
But on to what is new. Turned 30 this year, cripes QUESTIONS ABOUT RSI (Repetitive Strain Injury) IN QUADRICEPS MUSCLE
For all these years I've been unable to exercise because of pains. I'm overweight (which doesn't help, of course) because of the absence of exercise and it doesn't help I often cope by eating. When I'm sad, I eat. Have been dieting on and off the past years and at the moment am seriously trying again. Lots of different things have been tried, PTs have hammered their heads to walls because of me. Every time something has looked promising, some new pain or other bad reaction has come up to prevent continuing it. Before pains I was an active person doing ballet and other types of dance, horse back riding, biking, sking, swimming etc. All those now in the past.
This fall I discovered pool therapy. Was going to try it last year, but I got a mycoplasma infection, that lasted for several months. About 2 months ago I went to see a PT in our health center about my hand pains (a thing no doctor has been able to help me with during the past 10 years). The PT was smart and said there's no point in trying something that has proven itself useless already. So she suggested pool therapy. While it wouldn't cure anything, it would help me get a little better muscle control in my body and even help strengthen the weakened muscles.
I did pool therapy at the health center twice a week for 6 weeks and would never have believed it actually did some good. While it was painful, in general it was good
For the first time in years, something to do with exercise actually felt useful. Pool therapy ended about a month ago and I'm going to continue those exercises independently. But then I hurt my thigh muscle about 3 weeks ago and haven't gotten to that yet. Seems it's an RSI (repetitive strain injury), because it keeps coming back with a vengeance, when I overdo something. The front of the left thigh (which has had smaller+weaker muscles since my first knee surgery 12 yrs ago, when no one adviced me correctly in rehab and I had yet no experience over knee surgeries) is sore to the touch and I can't put weight on the foot. Gotta walk with a crutch, which does no good for the shoulder and hand..x(
It's been years since I've had new muscle injuries. I have a bad back sometimes, but it's most often completely treatable with heat. What is the best way to treat a strain in quadriceps muscle?
I've done heat (cold is my friend when treating chronic pains, but for muscle strains heat is the best) pads, elevating, rest and pain killers. I have a checkup appointment tomorrow of my hands, migh be that I throw in a question about my thigh as well, if it seems possible (depends a lot, what the dr is like - it's a different doc than last time I was there).
This is all for now, I might come back to add stuff in case I forgot something.
Thanks for reading and for any possible comments/advice in advance!
Wishing everyone happy holiday time,