Spinal morphine pump

After 1 month with epidural and then back on painmeds that didn't do anything more then making me high I was set to go to the other hospital for to get my Spinal morphine pump inserted. Hell was that I needed to shower twice without my Immobilizier. They had to be 3 persons to help me shower to get me somewhat comfortable. I got injections before and after the showers. I don't think I ever have cried and lost my breathe so many times like I did now. An ambulance came and picked me up early. 2 nice young guys making me laugh when the bumps in the road made me cry.